I'm still not fully packed.

This sucks. Leaving. Coming back for a short while. Then leaving for college. Sigh le farce. Can we just put everything on hold please?

Yesterday, I got to discuss a Martian bugger with someone and it has been of great relief since.

I FINALLY had a proper talk with my parents last night which I NEVER had since I was too busy sequestering myself in the cosy corner of this apartment rather than mingling with their deficient conversations such as how good the watermelon tasted this year.
Mom blinked in wonder as I told her my lack of enthusiasm towards this year's vacation. Dad was part of the talk too,except most of his contributions were lame jokes between my solemn speeches,as he pleasurely stared at his new luggage,posing in front of the mirror.
Last year,I was psyched up to leave this warzone and was beyond prepared to take on a new life in the Philippines after TWS. Just as long as I was away from my parents. Sigh much though,I never really got to carefully analyze what else I'm leaving behind apart from my extremely dysfunctional family. I mean,no matter where I go,I'm still sentenced to life-long imprisonment anyway since I am biologically-chained to them. Lol. This year was an eye-opener,and thanks a bunch for showing up so early.

My best friends and crossing path with newly-found friends that are beyond greatness,is what's holding me back now. The education and experience offered here is zero if held into comparison with what Philippines has for me,no doubt. But it's those corrupted cows that reproduce like mad that spread fear,encouraging the widespread dilemma of doubt and mistrust against one another,that live as the reason to the refusal of some individuals to take up higher education there. Take me as an example.
Sure,I'm there to fulfill my dream and to gain that diploma that would be my ticket to success anywhere in the world. But it's the insolent youth. Sure,not all are the same and as disturbed as how my sousin was,but the scare and anxiety is leaving me agitated. One of the reasons why I now prefer to attend university in Dubai is because I know my friends here and despite the constant discussions of porn and reproductive organs,we're well aware of our limits.

My mom told me if I set my mind to what I want to achieve,I should just grasp on to those inspirations that make me the best that I could be. She says I should just ignore upcoming temptations such as drugs [lol],drinking and getting boyfriends. Lol,God knows.. I got scarred for life after a number of encounters already ok so I think I've learnt my lesson on that one,mom. Lol.
I was pretty happy that my parents [or mostly my mom coz she did all the talking] listened to what was bothering me for the past weeks..

Shit my god brother arrived. Comprehensive walking hell-hole. Lol.